To drink or not to drink, that is the question.

This week went by very smoothly! My cravings weren't as intense as last week's and I'm starting to feel so much better myself. It seems like my body has finally resigned to its new healthy ways! I've had greek salad, I've had pasta, I've had chicken sandwiches, and I've even had rice and beans (all ungenerously measured of course) with meat! Variety is definitely a key factor when you're dieting. If you eat wheat and greens the whole time, then you'll obviously grow sick and tired and lose faith in carrying on with the whole process. But when you widen your options, you actually welcome lettuce and oatmeal when they hit your plate. It's that simple. Just do your research and you'll find out you can actually eat yummier things that make you feel better than those who don't watch what they're shoving in their mouths. Try it! Google offers more than just celebrity gossip. ;)

So... this week's topic, THE topic: alcohol. After three long weeks of anguish and uncertain abstinence, I finally faced the [fair] possibility of indulging myself. My friends were able to pull me from my sanity for a couple of hours - just for the sake of having a little fun - and I was excited, THRILLED with the idea of tasting alcohol again. (I know I sound like an alcoholic, but I found out just recently that I'm really not. I'm not giving out any details due to it being off topic so you're just gonna have to take my word for it.) So we set up to go to Tapas Y Vinos which is a tapas bar here in Panama where you pay a rather fair bill for all-you-can-drink wine (or sangria) and tapas. It's a great deal and the environment is welcoming! When we arrived, I was scared I wasn't going to be able to live past my first couple of wine... (NOTE! I chose to skip dinner; and let's be honest, 3 weeks? I'd most likely lost ALL immunity) but I found out I was wrong!!! I was handling the drinking like a veteran and I think I might have had an average of 8 glasses - maybe less, maybe more; by the end of it, I had totally lost count. When we payed, we chose to go to a club, and to be honest, I wasn't feeling so sober anymore, so I thought, "I'm not drinking a single drop after this." We got to the club and guess what? I completely cheated myself and drank 2 more glasses of wine (oh, it was white wine; just in case you were wondering - it's chill, it doesn't ridiculously stain your teeth, and, most importantly, it has less calories than red wine). Anyways, the careless decision of extra indulging in wine led to chaos. I'd lost it. I began acting stupid, and I know I got and looked completely shit wrecked. I had drank too much, as usual, and I'd rather not give out any details about the embarrassments and certain situations I had to go through afterward. I'm just going to confess I ruined my phone and ended up taking a cab back home. YES, a taxi. I totally cared shit and, for all I cared, I could have gotten kidnapped worst case scenario. Anyways, this morning I woke up feeling utterly nauseous and like my eyes were gonna pop out. I have to admit, I didn't have as much fun as I thought I would have. It didn't feel as good to have drank. It was just OK, and OK isn't enough for me. I don't know if this feeling is just a phase, but I don't really feel like drinking like I used to anymore. It just seems blah to me as I'm typing this. I'm definitely going to cut it down!

So, yes, I wanted to share this with you. Sometimes we feel like we're going to be the same way for the rest of our lives and that nothing's going to change us and our habits. Truth is that that's all they are... habits. And habits can be replaced with other habits, better habits. All you need is willpower and the determination to do it. I really, really encourage you to try replacing those habits that aren't really letting you move on with new, refreshing ones!

I'm excited for tomorrow... I get to eat a scoop of a cassata ice cream as my weekly treat!!! I know it's not much, but after putting deep thought into it, I'd rather have that than nothing. ;)

I had photos to post from last night and of some of my meals this week, but my phone is in a coma. Sorry!!!